not much today. haven't slept well the last few days, not sure why. surprisingly I'm not a complete jerk because of it.

I've been ecstatic with the work I've been doing both coloring and painting the last 2 weeks.  I seem to have found whatever it was that I had lost that was sucking my energy and life out of my work.  Maybe I'm just over being burnt out and that's it, but whatever happened it was a welcome relief.  I've always struggled with confidence.  I think that might be starting to correct itself, and perhaps the biggest difference in my work is that I'm just more confident, or less scared of my own instincts, and that is the thing that has been showing up visibly in my work. Interesting to think about, being 32 and STILL not being completely confident in my abilities. Strange how life works, I think THAT is safe to say for sure.

a TON, an absolute TON of loose ends to tie up the next 2 days.  Hope to have everything down to just manageable by next Monday.  Going to be a long weekend.  Really hoping that the planets align and the last check that I've been waiting on from a company that was due in September finally shows up tomorrow or at the latest on Monday. Was in the mail yesterday I guess, so that is a big improvement from where things have been at the least.  

alright, time to throw myself back into some pages today and get lost for a while in them.  I've decided that, being the huge classical music guy that I am, Fridays and Mondays are the best days of the week for that type of music.  I think my favorite classical station right now is WCPE from the iTunes radio section.  Not too much talking, or commercials, and a great variety of composers and orchestras as well.  ah....Fridays.