Okay so if you know me you already know about my health issues, so I won't go into the details, but anyway it's pushing against my optic nerve and I'm already having troubles with my drawing because of that. The problem is, most of the careers I'm looking at require vaguely-okay sight at all times - no reason to be hiring a half blind artist 
Last year I used a screen reader and relied on touch-typing and bump pattern recognition for a while until I got an operation which fixed it but over the last three months I've noticed it deteriorating again and the fact that it takes 1000000 years to get an appointment with my neurosurgeon (I only trust the best with something as important as my brain, therefore he is the best paediatric neurosurgeon in the country and thus impossible to get hold of unless you're on the brink of death or a rockstar who fell out of a tree)
Okay I wrote this a few days ago when I was depressed and just realised it doesn't really relate to art toooo much and I also wasn't going to use this blog to whine about my life so instead I'm going to whine about the art challenges.
In the past I've tried to stay away from these because I know I'm nowhere up to standard to enter them, but tonight I decided to look at them and actually found that there are some good ideas/concepts to be found in those threads. There are two that I'm doing, although I don't plan on entering my finished artworks, I just like having a new theme to draw and also I want to learn how to meet deadlines because I have a habit of getting bored of my pictures and giving up on them until a few months later.
I had waaaay too many ideas for the "Fractured Fairytales" challenge that I don't have the skill to draw yet and it's a bit late to start unless I can finish it in less than 2 weeks, which I can't because I can only use my computer a few times a week (and I would have to try and fit that challenge into the other WiPs I'm doing), and I'm too scared to enter the "Rob as a Game Character" one, but the "Trapped" one caught my interest because as soon as I saw it I got this image of a girl trapped in a glass box.
I didn't really want to bring my health issues into my blog, I wanted to keep it strictly about Art but it's inevitable that the two would mix. After all, the only reason I'm pursuing art is because the left side of my brain got eaten, destroying all hopes of a career in medicine or engineering like I'd been aiming for my entire life.
But this glass box concept, I was suprised how quickly it came to me. My immediate "vision" was of a girl trapped inside a glass box in the middle of a bustling city, where she could see all the people outside but not communicate with them, and the people outside the box could just stare at the girl inside the box like an exhibit at the museum.
The reason this image was so striking is because it is a visual metaphor of my life.
I don't know why I keep writing a paragraph and then saving but not publishing, but I do. So anyway, I've already decided to enter the "Trapped" challenge using my girl-in-glass-box thing and I have most of her drawn, although I've moved away from the side-of-the-street idea and am aiming towards more of a zoo-exhibit concept, under a "endangered species" banner with maybe some creature hybrid or mythical or futuristic creatures next to her (or to illustrate a point, abundant animals of today like rats or cockroaches - although I have a feeling one day it'll be evolutions of the cockroach staring into the exhibit...... another story......)
This poor girl has gone from an ignored box falling at the end of societies bell-curve on the side of the street, to being a sacrifice to the rainbow jellybean priests (which I'm considering finishing one day by the amount of comments about how "cute" they were..... They weren't supposed to be cute!!!) to being the main exhibit at a zoo.
Alrighty, yet another jump-skip, I'd add the date and all like I do in my WiP blog entries but I can't remember the date.
I entered my "Trapped" picture but because I spent so much time changing the setting and trying to evolve the idea that I ended up a few hours before it was due with hardly any sleep writing nonsense about alien evolution and digestive biology
If I'd been awake in time for the last minute I would have cropped it down to exclude those panels of information and just have her, the rope, and the shadows/reflections of the aliens.
Wow. I totally can't believe it, I got two, yes TWO votes for my pathetic picture!!! I can't believe it I thought it might have been some sort of joke or something but when I realised that people had actually voted for me - one of them being Comtessa!!!
- I told my dad, he got all excited, rang my mum on her cellphone, she got all excited, and now they both think I'm some sort of amazing artist 
The problem with this weeks challenge is that the first thing I thought of is something a bit too close to home for me to draw. I tried adding a sci fi horror twist to it but it was still too hard (and started resembling Cyril Van der Haegen's alien dentist from issue 11). And although I've gotten several other ideas since then my mind keeps drifting.
There is one idea which, if I can pull it off in less than a week, I could use for both the weekly and the monthly (if that's allowed) but lack of references and no knowledge of perspective is making it very hard to draw. I'd take a photo of my grandmother but she'd go insane over the prospect of modelling as a princess and I don't want to encourage her too much.
I wish I was Nickillus. He's very good at drawing non-size-6-perfect-warrior-queen-wearing-nothing-but-a-g-string women (ie, older or larger women than the norm) and still making them look beautiful and nicely done. If I try to draw anything other than what is perfect by society it ends up looking like I drew it wrong - although that is a debate for another day.
Maybe I should go impressionist on this one and just do something weird instead of trying to make things look like things, which I'm not very good at, and because random splodges of paint are much easier to draw with my eyesight how it is at the moment than trying to get the details of say, a palm, down right.
Goodness gracious, what a depressing post. I should probably delete it but I'll publish it in case people can give me ideas on my challenge problems.
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