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Beginning the Journey Again

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Blossom: Progress

Since the last post about this picture was mostly full of my scribbles, or to make it sound more professional, "concept sketches", I've decided to make a new post to write about the actual "rendering" of the piece.

 

Monday, 7 May - 21:00
I took some advice from the wonderful Marta Dahlig in an IFX workshop about painting eyes, and stared at myself for some time as well as studying some pictures of eyes. I finally managed to paint some really good eyes, those tips Marta Dahlig gives about the eyeshadow and making lashes longer and reflected light etc, they're wonderful! They brought my eyes out from muddy flat boring things to looking like they were actually wet, 3D eyes! The problem is, she still looks a little retarded because the eyes are too far apart and they still don't look like they're both looking the same direction:

Blossom: WiP 2
(if it's pixelly it's because it didn't fit and I had to resize it, it's a little bigger here)


But I'm still really really proud of how well they came out (remember this is my first painting!!!!) and even my dad didn't believe me that I made them myself. I know why I don't like her expression, as I mentioned before it's too tight, but also in my concept sketch I had her eyes half closed and not so wide-eyed and innocent, and also the angles of her face were a lot more... well, angular. I think softening the lines and giving her such big eyes has lost some of the feeling of the original sketch, that sort of bitterness at a world gone cruel, but I think the new look also gives her this innocent sort of oh-no-the-world's-gone-cruel-I-might-cry thing going on. I dunno, what do you think?

 

Monday, 7 May - 23:00
My mum told me the reason she looked so suprised was because I'd made the lower lid droop in the middle instead of making it go straight across then up, so I deleted the lower lashes and smudge-tooled the lower rim to be a bit higher, which I think helped. I also gave her more voluminous upper lashes. I added the hair using John Kearney's brilliant workshop in issue 10 but I couldn't add very much depth, I think it's because she has dark hair. I dodged a little on the lower lip to see if it would make it seem more "real" - it didn't. I dunno what to do about that. I started working on the neck area but I have NO IDEA how to draw that!!! The amount of erasing and smudging and repainting that's gone on, and it still doesn't look anything like a neck area. I need help!!!
Blossom: WiP 3

I was going to start adding the pattern I got off some Japanese paper to her hood until I realised I had no idea how. I followed the Q&A in my latest issue (I think it was February?) but I just managed to make it look like a cartoon so I think I might end up making her hood have a very basic hand-drawn pattern, and if I still can't pull it off I'll just make it a solid colour, but in one that stands out from the rest of the scene so I still get that out-of-place effect.

Tuesday 8 May, 15:00ish
Wow!!! The people on the IFX forums are sooooo helpful! I really wasn't expecting any answers to my question especially since it was so LONG but I got so many replies and pieces of advice, so amazing!! So I tried messing around with her eyes some more and I just can't seem to get anything right!! Then I decided to look at what I'm calling my "concept sketch" for lack of a better name and realised what gave her the attitude was the dark, semi-closed eyes. So I tried editing the eyes she already had to fit that look and then I replaced the eyeshadow with thick mascara and eyeliner (I had to put some eyeliner on myself to see how to do it!!) but even though the right eye looked okay, I just could not make the left eye match it no matter how hard I tried, even when I flipped the image and tried doing it from the other side.
Blossom: New Eyes
Pretty messed up huh?

Tuedsay 8 May, 21:30
Well I'm one of those people with hardly any attention span and if something's taking too long I quickly become bored and lose interest. I was hoping that wouldn't happen with this picture but really I think I took a very deep dive for my first painting! So, like most people who have what I have, I found my mind wandering and not paying much attention to what I was doing and I was already doodling concepts for a new piece with the one hand while I tried to fix things up with the other (not a very good idea because both of them come out badly!!) So I just reverted back to the wide-eyed suprised version, roughly coloured her clothes and dodge&burned them, then added a not-very-interesting background by dragging some custom brushes around.

"Finished" Pic: http://s203.photobucket.com/albums/aa282/chenyunart/blossom/fullsize.jpg

I still have the original sketch and two different PSD files of different stages though so I might come back to it later. I guess I just have way too much on my mind right now, also I'm still excited about all these new hardware and software to play with so I more want to just doodle with the different brushes and effects than sit down and commit to a painting. Oh well, like everything else, it was a learning experience, and I enjoyed it!! And I've learnt that the people here on IFX are waaaay more friendly and helpful than I imagined (I didn't think you were mean or anything, I just figured that you're all so good at art that you wouldn't want to waste your time helping someone like me!)

And even though it wasn't in the right place on her face (and I couldn't make the eyeshadow look powdery enough, and I didn't draw a proper eyebrow, and there's an unblended bit of blue on the corner, and the veins layer isn't on the right mode, and......Zip it!), I'm still really proud of her left eye because the actual eye itself (sans makeup and eyebrow) looks so good even my dad didn't believe that I drew it so I saved a close up from the original resolution Smile
Blossom: Eye from stage 3

And that's the end of my Blossom picture...... or is it??? hehe

Wednesday, 9 May - 03:00
So I couldn't sleep and I wanted to play on the computer but I didn't want to start a new picture at this time of night so I went back to blossom. Looking back through the various WiP pictures I saved (whoever suggested that as a tip in their IFX interview - thankyou! It's helped me work things out so much easier) I realised that although the "new eyes" were shoddy, badly placed and realistically nowhere near the level of the original eyes, they still gave it a better mood. They're a bit cartoony and their proportions and everything are totally nothing like what they'd look like on a real person but if I look at this more from a concept point of view and less from a "I need to make this look realistic" point of view, the new eyes had a better feel to them. I think. I'm still not sure which I like better, but since I couldn't sleep I put them in just so I could compared a "finished" version with the new eyes to the "finished" version with the old eyes.
Earlier in the evening I was going to write a question on the forum asking what to do with the texture files that come on the DVD, and on the WiP forum I was asking how do I add a pattern to the fabric? Well I just went into the Blending Options and chose "Pattern Overlay" then plastic-wrapped it and voila, it suddenly looks like it's actually made of fabric and not just some place-holder brush strokes. I love photoshop!!! Here is the new version:
Blossom: Rendered with New Eyes
with a larger version here.

I think I might leave it there, there's not much more I can do unless I decide to continue with my original idea, but that will require time, patience, and a huge background, plus adding a boddy to this bust and all sorts of other things so I might leave that until I'm a little better.

Still, not bad for my first try hey!! Which do you prefer: the old "finished" version or the new "finished" version?

Blossom: Old EyesBlossom: New Eyes

Published 07 May 2007 21:55 by ChenYun
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About ChenYun

Okay it seems there is an entire page on my "User Page" where I can write all about me, so since I'm never going to get a coveted IFX interview I'll write all about myself here!!

Most of the famous artists you read about say they've been drawing since the moment they could hold a crayon, with me that is totally not true. In fact by the time I could hold a crayon my parents were really confused as to whether I was left-handed or right-handed (a problem that would haunt me throughout primary school until left-handedness was finally accepted by teachers). Anyway, my entire childhood was geared completely towards academic goals. I still had a few arts in there, I played various instruments and did various performing arts but it never occured to me to draw.

I suppose I was raised in an environment perfect for growing an aspiring fantasy artist but I used those creative surroundings more for making my own little worlds and stories than for drawing anything. I've been surrounded by fantasy since birth - from my father I learnt the myths and legends of China and great stories of heroes and dragons.

For my mother I have one of the most loving and nurturing people in existence. She wasn't one of those mums like the ones today who tell their kids to stop imagining or tell them fairies aren't real. My mum was the opposite and I believed in fairies, Santa Claus etc until much later than most people because of the way she loved to surround our childhood with magic. On Christmas eve she would run around the house throwing pebbles on the roof, gnaw at the carrots we left out for the reindeer (and even left "reindeer poo"!!) and the Christmas Tree would magically go from empty to overflowing with beautifully packaged gifts without us hearing a peep! The Tooth Fairy left us little cards with writing so small we needed magnifying glasses to read them, and there was always "magic dust" around our "fairy tree".

She got the "magic dust" from my grandmother, a rather insane old lady (I mean that in the nicest possible way) who thought she was a fairy (she called herself "Wandering Star" although "Wandering Mind" might have been more appropriate. Again, I mean that in the nicest possible way :P ) and worked for a place called "The Faerie Shop". Her entire basement was dedicated to her work for that place and she therefore had literally barrels of every colour and shape glitter or sequins you could imagine.
When my grandmother was growing up the only real job available for ladies back then was to be a wife and mother and that wasn't her thing so she aspired to be a great ballet dancer. But then the war happened and ladies were recruited to sew stuff. After that she became passionate about sewing - but especially for the fantastic. Her elaborate and lovingly crafted fancy-dress costumes got her a job at The Faerie Shop where even now, in her 80s, she still makes the loveliest fairy costumes and accessories you can imagine. They're so beautiful you don't want your toddler running around in the backyard wearing it, you just want to frame it on your wall because of how beautiful it is.

Anyway, part of her being a "faerie" were a lot of mystical crystals and other fantastical stuff around her house, so that (coupled with her eccentric taste in clothing) led me to believe she was an enchantress for most of my childhood. She passed on her secrets of costuming to her daughter (my mum), and when my older sister decided to become a ballerina, I was constantly surrounded by gorgeous tutus and princess dresses. My sister was really serious about dancing so I was dragged along to countless classes, recitals, competitions, and ballet productions throughout my childhood which not only filled my mind with fairytales but also visions of princesses and fairies, wizards and magic.

Suprisingly enough, with all this going on around me, I was more interested in school and math than in fantasy and it had still never occured to me to draw until the end of primary school when I got a sim game called "Creatures". My natural need to create and some weird talent for programming (probably the aspergers) led me to start creating objects, worlds, species and all sorts of other things for the game (It's a lot like The Sims, where you can make furniture and clothes for them). Of course you can't have invisible creatures in an invisible world playing with invisible toys, so I learnt to use Microsoft Paint. The images I constructed laboriously pixel-by-pixel in MS Paint were probably the first pictures I ever made (other than childhood fingerpainted scribbles, of course).

Around this time I also had the most fantastic teacher who encouraged creativity in all her students even the ones who thought they didn't have any talent (like me). I owe a lot to that teacher, because it was while I was in her class I drew my first pencil-and-paper picture and discovered that hey, I quite like making pictures. But my life was still very much aimed at the academic side of things, I was four years ahead in certain subjects and I was really devoted to learning.

But perhaps it was fate that sent me an illness right around this time - when I had just discovered art. The thing in my brain slowly eats up bits of information in there so soon I was no longer the genius child but just some bored kid stuck in hospital, frustrated by her inability to solve simple problems that once took an instant. So it was that while I was lying around being bored, I began to doodle my various ideas for new items/species/worlds/etc for my Creatures game. Making any of those things for the game required both programming knowledge and the ability to make graphics that other people would like.
It wasn't long before my sketchpad was filling with ideas for things other than Creatures, such as my very own worlds (which I later turned into morpgs) and I realised that game design was a really, really awesome thing. But I knew that I needed to know how to draw my concepts before any of my ideas could become reality, so my parents got me a laptop so I could do this stuff from my bed.

Fast Forward a few years to when I was about 15 and I had a wonderful period of a few months where I was in this remission stage and I was able to go to school a few times a week and for once be normal. I met my bestest-best friend in the whole wide world ever then, and she introduced me to Elf Wood. As soon as I went on that site a whole new world opened for me and my journey towards being a fantasy artist began!!
The pictures in my Elfwood gallery aren't very good but I didn't get a chance to update because when I was 16 my illness came back with a vengeance and started slowly wiping things out of my memory. I can't tell you what happened between then and now because I've completely lost all memory.

The first thing I can remember is being in hospital just after a huge brain operation. My mum had been looking for magazines for me but couldn't find the "right" one - tabloid magazines were just depressing and gaming magazines just made me wish I could afford those games. Then she saw a magazine that had this awesome picture on the cover called "Imagine FX", proclaiming at the top it was a magazine dedicated to Fantasy & Sci-Fi Digital Art. Could there be a more perfect magazine???

After reading that I was hooked and I've gotten every single one since. When I lost my genius brain I thought my life was over and that I'd never have a future but these magazines have shown me there is an alternative route - I don't have to be an engineer or a surgeon, there is actually an industry out there that employs people to design games!!

So that's my story up to now. I can't believe you read this far!! Right now I'm waiting for my illness to get sorted out and then I plan on doing a course and maybe even a diploma. Ultimately I want to end up on the design team for Final Fantasy XXVIII but who knows what fate has in store for me in the future? I may not be the best artist - in fact I have absolutely no talent whatsoever - but I'm doing my very best to learn and IFX has been a godsend. It reawoke a part of me that I thought had died of depression long ago, and it's helping me learn how to be a better artist so that even though I don't have any natural talent in that area I may one day be able to produce pictures that people like.

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